How are you doing?

As many may know I am a senior this year. This is "the big year" for me. I am graduating soon and will be moving to the apartment just as soon too. So much has been happening in my life. Those of you who have had a part in my life and have been walking with me and helping me along have seen those things. In this point of my life I keep getting asked, "How are you doing?" "What are you going to do?". As every one knows there are good days and bad. Everyone goes through those days. lol When asked those questions sometimes I can smile really big and say I'm great and other days I want to scream in that person's face and say, "Horrible!!""I don't know go away!!" and just cry.(to those who have seen that I am sorry and know we will laugh about it soon :))
God has really been working in my life. In more ways than you and I may ever know. I wanted to share with all of you some things He is doing.
 With graduation and "moving out" just around the corner I have been struggling with many fears. Yes, the girl that Megan claims has no fears and emotions has TONS! I have feared what if my computer breaks and I can't finish school, what if I don't get my ACT done in time and I won't be allowed to graduate, what if something happens and graduation is cancelled, or what if I move out and the apartment is infested with mice, what if I can't sleep with out Timmy in the room, what if I can't sleep with out knowing my Daddy isn't in the house, what if I never find the man God has for me, what if I'm too busy with my family and church and four h that the man never finds me. This list continues! However, if you look at the list you'll notice two words over and over, WHAT IF.
While reading God loudly told me to basically "Shut up your thought process! Stop with the what ifs and look at me!" In Jeremiah 29:11 He told me He knows what He is doing. All those "what ifs" I had have pretty much already been taken care of! :) So what if my computer breaks, God gave me a very smart Dad who makes a living from his smarts on computers. My fear of the ACT, we were told I do NOT need it to graduate high school.(I will still take it eventually) That was just miscommunication. God kinda gave me a whack up side the head and said "cut it out!". The apartment is not infested with mice, that's just crazy, and my Daddy isn't going to always be there, but my heavenly Daddy will NEVER leave!
Genesis 28:15 (King James Version)
 And, behold, I am with thee, and will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land; for I will not leave thee, until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of.
 God knows all of my what ifs and He has a plan! I just need to stop forgetting that.
We hear so many preachers and teachers talk about how we need to give things/areas to God. What some people  leave out is that we don't need to give just "things" and just give "areas" to God we need to give OURSELVES to God. That's were the dieing daily comes in. (another thing I struggle with)
I worry a lot (in my head) about what will they think or how will I be viewed by people if I do or act a certain way. I have talked about before on how Bro. Jonathan has taught us to ask Why. Well, God has been teaching me to ask, "So What?" So what if things don't go as planed? They aren't suppose to be my plans I dwell on anyways, but His. So what? The answer to that question will always be...God will provide. God is here. God loves me. Regardless of if I/we see it or not God knows what He is doing. (That's been a big/HUGE thing for me)
Those are things we all know, but God's been making those personal to me.
So, to all my face book family I want to challenge you to ask, So What? and please continue to pray for me and all the other seniors embarking on this "growing up journey".
Thank you!
Amanda